During 4th week guided meditation with Monika. I saw what my mother carried and I broke down, couldn’t stop crying. I thought carrying the death of 7 siblings was heavy. She had to carry that, and losing her parents, brother, go through war, and start a family and a business in a country that took 20 years to recover from war. And whatever else she carried for her mother and grandmother. As the meditation continued, I saw what looked like her clothes/armour/wall just shattered completely, like glass that shattered . She became this being of light, so much lighter, more peaceful. A lot of pain and trauma released.
The next part, I spontaneously saw something leave me and go back to her, something I’ve been carrying for her. I didn’t have time to figure out what it was but it was hers.
A couple of days later, she got on a bus with 3 friends to go to Siem Reap for a ceremony/trip. A friend in Siem Reap was telling me how much fun my mum was having. This trip she didn’t tell us. She just upped and went. The first time I remember her doing this.
I spent the last few days with family doing ceremonies. She is much lighter, and laughs very easily now.
As for myself, there’s a new level of ease, a new level of grace, and a new level of flow that’s manifested. And a new confidence. New level unlocked.